women's fall retreat

so i went on our church's women's fall retreat this past weekend. this was the longest i have ever had to leave emma taylor. getting ready to leave friday afternoon i really had to fight back tears. i thought to myself who is this person. generally, i am not very emotional and what did i have to be worried about. emma taylor is such an easy baby. she would be fine. she doesn't have any attachment issues and somehow the tables have been turned and i am the one having the issues. motherhood really does change you. and thank goodness it does because you do have a little person to take care of.

i am so glad that i went. i proved to myself that i could handle. she could handle it. and nobody would be any worse off. i have not had much uninterupted hang out time with friends since i had e.t. and i know seasons of life change but every once in awhile i really think that you need to be renewed.

the speaker tara barthel was very entertaining, down to earth, and in one word real. i finally had sometime to really slow down and think. i realized some of my fears (which was the topic) and was able to really understand how to fight them. i got to talk openly and honestly with friends and it was refreshing. besides the conference part we were at the beach in october and it felt awesome. i am so thankful for great weather, great friends, and time away.